love at NOT first sight chapter 8

shielding myself from the barren tears of winter itself, the spikes of winter tears smash into me, bruises appear wear the barren tears hit, my own tears leak down my face, the trace of sadness marks its spot. it all happened hours ago, i was talking with Ethan laughing and smiling, i asked him a certain question, it ended up with him lashing out, he yelled at me. “just shut up! please! im just sad alright?”, i didn’t know how to process that, my hearts never heard such cold, harsh words i couldn’t understand why he said that. the question i didn’t seem as hurtful, i didn’t see it as harmful in anyway, when he looked at me he seemed so hurt, lonelier then i had ever seen, tears were forming in his eyes. the next thing i know, i shift in the direction behide and run, i didn’t know when i would return, was it gonna be a hour? was it gonna be many hours?, the answer is multiple. i wanted to go back, but i couldn’t handle what Ethan might say, i was afraid of hurting his feelings, “Olivia!” he yelled, pain was melodic it was filled of pain, a painful melody was in his voice. then the next i hear is a slap, then the sound of my friend yelling, then it all turns into melodies of nature, this was my first time in a forest, i was beyond worried and terrified. but by now, it was to late to turn around, the snowy wraith of winter hit me, it was a beautiful sunny day, the next hail was pouring from the sky, the sky was crying. why though?, what upset it? was it our fight earlier?, or am i just a idiot trying to think philosophically?, im only nine its not like im gonna know everything about life. the hail smacked me in the head, the next i know im unconscious, the thought of Ethan is in my head, is he safe? i dont want him to die, the darkness is all i see, i just pray he saves me before it consumes me. the hail is coming down hard, me and Olivia had a argument over, well not really a argument, im the one who lashed out onto her, my worst fear came alive. my toxic side unleashed itself, i don’t mean to be i didn’t mean those words, they stabbed me like a rough sided dagger when i said them, my tears wanted to flow. these tears were not barren, not like those other times, this time it really pained me, Katie slapped me, the echo of it spread around, the sting spread straight into my feelings. thats when it clicked to me, the feelings damaged her the worst anyone’s damaged her, i hurt her so much, i sped up my pace, i was running so fast my head was spinning. “OLIVIA!!” i screamed, when i opened up my eyes, a giant piece of hail smashed into my face, i threw backwards it stung badly, i reached up to my face my hand was veiled in blood. it was covered in scarlet blood, i got up and ran faster then before, “OLIVIA!!” i yelled again, as i was running i halted in my steps, there Olivia was covered in snow. i picked her up, i kept running i knew i needed to find shelter, after running i found a random cabin, i ran in and locked the door, there was firewood i took some and put it in the fireplace. i took out a match from my drawstring bag, i struck the match and tossed it in, i took off my coat and covered Olivia in it, i got onto the floor and sat by her. “Olivia.. please” i say, it sounds all jumbled up when i say it, my tears are streaming out of my eyes, “huh? Ethan!” Olivia says excitedly, without hesitation i hug her quickly. im smiling so big right now, “Olivia!” i say excitedly, tears keep flowing out of my eyes. “Ethan dont cry” she says smiling at me, “i was so scared” i say trying to maintain a calm voice, Olivia’s eyes start to water, i hold her close “its okay” i whisper to her, “im just so happy i have you”. i whisper to her, i wipe her tears away, “think of the good now” i say, she smiles at my remark “okay”, she says smiling, she lifts her hand up “Ethan your face!”. she says wided her eyes, “oh let me fix it” i say, i grab my towel from my bag and hold it to my face, “Ethan im sorry about earlier” Olivia says apologetically, i shake my head. “you did nothing wrong it was me”, i say apologetically, “i.. have a bad habit of being toxic” i say, Olivia pulls me into a hug, “ill love you no matter what” she whispers to me, i smile. she then pulls away, i slip my hand in hers, then i press my lips against hers, our eyes are closed, she wraps her arms around me, she brings me closer to her, hours end up flying by. when i wake up im on the floor, “Ethan you okay?” Olivia asks me, “yeah im fine” i say, we get on our coats and pack our stuff, before we step out i grab her hand, “stay by me”. i whisper to her, she smiles “alright” she responds, im holding her hand tightly, we end up getting found, “are you kids okay?” the person asks, “sir he got hit really hard last night”. Olivia says, he looks at my face with shock, “thats a huge scar” he says, “what about her is she okay?”, he looks at her “seems fine, we’ll see though”, he says. all the kids gather to the food-hall, the teachers and other kids run to us, “Ethan what happened?”, mr.brent asks “i got hit with a huge piece of hail while searching for Olivia”. i say while smiling, “and i got smacked in the head with it when i woke up i was next to Ethan”, Olivia says, mr.brent gives us both hugs, “im so sorry you guys” he says, “its alright”. Olivia says, “i had my boyfriend to rescue me” Olivia says, she gives me a hug, i smile and hug her back, when i look over at Christopher hes not looking at us. “aren’t you supposed to hurt me or something Christopher?”, i ask him curiously, hes up to no good, he looks at me and shakes his head, “i like Jane” he says while blushing. me and Olivia look at each other, “they will not last long” i whisper to her, we laugh slightly, “Ethan are you okay?” my dad walks up to me, “yeah im good” i say, he looks over and smiles. “hey Olivia” he says to her, “uh hey dad” i say, he looks at me “you okay?”, he asks i smile, “i wanted to tell you s-shes my girlfriend” i say awkwardly, at that moment. Olivia leans up and kisses my cheek, she then pulls back “wow” i say caught up in a daze, in this moment the whole room bursts into cheers, and then i freeze in terror “Olivia are you okay?”. i hear, her DAD ask! oh no, if he finds out im going to be dead!, “hey dad!”. she says smiling, he smiles then looks at me, “whos that? a friend of yours?” he asks, sweat starts beading up on my forehead, “how about i show you?” she asks, then she kisses me quickly. my eyes wided, i start smiling like a massive dork, i look over and oh no, he’s looking at me, his jaw is dropped and eyes are wided, in a instant and bow down to him. “dont kill me! please im to young to die!”, i say pleading for my life i hear steps come closer to me, im almost convinced this is my final breath, i then feel a pat on my back. “take care of her” he says, i look at him in a daze, “your.. not gonna kill me?”, i ask he starts laughing, “no of course not” he says, he lifts me up, “we’re gonna take Olivia to the hospital now”. he says smiling, i then grab olivias hand, “please let me join, i wont be able to be calm if im not there for her”, i say begging him, his eyes get slightly wide. “sure” he says, we then walk to her car, we get inside of the car and buckle up, when we get inside the car Olivia’s dad turns on the radio, Nero forte starts playing, “a hope like yours wont help me now”. Olivia starts singing, a smile appears on my face, “TO MUCH ANIMOSITY..” i then continue singing, me and Olivia end up doing a duet, today was one tough day, out of everything i hope Olivia turns out okay.